Day 1

Semarang,
January 31th, 2011.

i think it's not true what most people said that we just have 3 level on lucid dream, because last night
i haved about 4 or 5 level in my dreams yeaa such a long tired dream but i'm happy.
cause long time ago i'm not see her again after the bustrain tragedy and tonight i see her in my dream :)
berfore the last level, i'm sit on sidewalk in front of my ex school 45 JHS with my friends filsya beside me
watching kids out and in through the gate of my school. time tick tock so slowly
everyone move in slow motion, so quiet... then suddenly time is stop like for a second
guess what? yes she's coming with her cute wry face. after i see her. her face her hair everything.
the world like losing gravity and slowly turn to the 90degrees. the awkward moment is begin
so funny we dont lose our gravity in 90degrees position like stick on the walls haha...
she's not talking and me too i'm keeping my image trying to be calm and cool
then after a minute she sit beside me and my heart was beating. so stupid -__-"
i talk with filsya and she's want to go and here we are to the last level,
we in my home. looks like my home just me and her still sitting without talking
but after a while she talk to open a conversation and yes we do cute conversation.
i'm touching her hair making a joke and she's always making a cute wry face, so pretty :)
then she move to the sofa waiting for her parents to pick up her so i company her
and waiting until my bro pick me up too to go to the 3days concert (i forget the name of that event)
so that's it. Oh god, i missing her...

i want you to hit me as hard as you can

  

"i want you to hit me as hard as you can"
that was a famous part of a conversation between Taylor Durden and himself in the "Fight Club" movies.
i just watched that movies. and i like that words.  yes.. "i want you to hit me as hard as you can"
well not fuckin much to say but according to my point of view
i see and i knew it mate if that words have a purpose to go fucking
"FREEDOM YOURSELF JUST LET ESCAPING OUR LIFE FROM THE FUCKING TIDY BORING LIFE, GET IN TO THE CHAOS AND MAKE A MESS TO BE LIVE IN A FUN ORIGINAL LIFE" 
but ofcourse in the end all just in an illusion world. tricky mind.

going back to the reality. hoping the joy and suffering the pains.

overall, it's such a wonderful movies to inspire me tonight
so, goodnight and have a nice lucid dream ;) 

my full free ways!

Semarang,
January 30th, 2011.

Do you know me? or do i know you? who are you? where the hell's you come from and trap to read this shit.
it is important to asking you? oh well i don't give a fuck anyway whether you're a human or a monster
or things or shit or whatever... i dont care just do what you wanna do and be nice.
cause right here and right now it's gonna be my full free ways to be aaaaaaaanything what i like.
once again, my full free ways!